All These things That I've Done...

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Current msn nick: IDLC© - mix bag of goodies: pissed, shitty, frustrated, disappointed, drained

I’m not stealing a page outta my friend’s blog with that nick thing but it’s the best way to describe what I’m feeling right now…

As you know of my units that I’m doing right now and the debacle that entailed, together with that reflective piece that I’ve written? Well, I take it all bad. I’m glad what I wrote after what has transpired today ….

We were suppose to meet outside of the room wgere we were to discuss whatever that was to be discussed. I was seating down chatting to my friend outside. As people who know me well enough would know that I won’t recognize you even if you were standing infront of me, maybe I would if I;ve known you long enough to recognize your body language. This incident happened twice when firstly they didn’t even acknowledge that it was them, the second time it was when I walked into the room and at that point I didn’t know it was them because there is usually a class before mine, and this was before I knew it was them. So I walked into the room and they didn’t even say anything tome, like it was them or something, so I walked outta the room. I only realized that it was the, when my other groupmate walked in. I don’t know why they dn’t say anything, like they don’t fucking hell know that I’ve got a handicap.

We were suppose to type out some stuff and well they let me do a token part of writing a mere paragraph, so I asked them what I should write and one of the mo fo’s said, “Oh why are you asking me what you shoul write?” Well, did that shitarse paragraph.

I don’t what people skills my lecturer has, he is a nice guy but this really made me so uncomfortable and insignificant, he basically said it out loud to my group, “Have you spoken to Ian yet?” as though I was panel on the wall.

And well, the lecturer did tell me that I had good writhing skills and all that to them, I don’t know whether they did it on purpose but they basically did all the things that I could do. Really felt like smacking this one bastard when he said that, “You could barely write that paragraph what makes you think you can write anything else?” and this paragraph I neede help for referencing on the screen.

It’s times like thses I wonder whether it’s my gawd damn fault.. everything and anything…… sigh …..