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The Rascalz - Groov'n On a Sunday Afternoon

Current Mood: a mixture of despair and emptiness...

Feeling really kinda mellow at the moment, let's see what the fingers may review. Well.

For starters, I think for the firest time I'm feeling the Birthday lues. I usually look forward to this day, but this year I'm really kinda down aout it. 23 years down here, feels as though nothing has happen in my life. Looking back at it so far, form what I can recollect, thre were the highs: absolute delight and natural buzz from what have you, as well as the absolute lows.

Times in which you wonder what and why were you brought into this place called life, what's the significance in it this journey called life, what's the big picture and where do you fit in the bigger scheme of things?

Though at this juncture my existence is considered small, i would say that I have seen and exoerience things that most people won't be able or want to in their lifetime. Adverse as some of these things are, in the long run it ain't detramantle at all. Whhat won't kill you will make you stronger in the end.

The end, when will that be? Do sometimes fel that things are somewhat superficial. The things you do and say, what does it all mean?? just to get a high for that so as to cover up for something?

Where's nirvana? that moment of enlightenment, where all your inner demons that plague you and throws you inyo self doubt simply vanishes and you feel at ease going to come? Where everything truly means something? When?

Things usually happen for a reason, life has a bloody way of balancing itself, just hope it does in the end...

'This is the end ... the end ... my good old friend ...'

To anyone who's reading this ... well.. not really going to give a shit to what you tink .. so have your prejudices and pass your ignorant, insignificant judgements, that's what life is all about... isn''t it ?