Me Against The World (damn cliches)

Now Playing: The Rolling Stones vs. Fatboy Slim – Sympathy for The Devil

It really has been a frustrating week for me, I sometimes wonder if I’m pushing myself to hard. It may not seem that way to most people on the outside, as most dickheafs won’t, but life is truly a complicated journey. Ir’s me against theworld.

Pushing myself you might say? Well, for all ignorant fools out there, I would have to admit and say it now to get through to you AND SPELL it out clearly to you …

I’M LEGALLY BLIND, BLIND IN MY ;EFT EYE AND HAVE ABOUT 20% ON MY RIGHT. YES IT DOES SUCK SO IF YOU’VE GOT NOTHING REALLY TO SAY THAN SHUT THE FUCK UP. I DON’T NEED YOUR RMPTY LINES OF NOTHINGNESS, NEITHER DO I NEED YOUR SYMPATHY BECAUSE THERE’S NOTHING SYMPATHETIC TO BE ABOUT. AND NO I’M NOT FUCKING LUCKY THAT I DON’T HAVE TO SERVE NATIONAL SERVICE, TRY WALKING IN MY SHOES FOR A DAY, NOT EVEN FOR TAT LONG, MAKE IT A SECOND, YOU’D THHINK IT’S A PERMANENT HELL. AND FINALLY, COMING FROM A PRIVILEDGED UPBRINGING IS NOT AN EASY LIFE. I AM WHATEVER YOU SAY I AM, SO WHO REALLY GIVES A DAMN ABOUT YOUR GAWD DAMN PERCEPTIONS OF ME?….clear enough for you yet?

Having to go through life being shitscared that you’d lose something as valuable as that is unthinkable. Haviing to make the extra effort to keep up with the status quo is daunting. I sometimes do wonder whether it’s worth it, all that unneccsary stress when I can easily just fall into blatant mediocrity as some people might suggest.

But never would I fall, crumble on such thoughts, life has taught me so many lessons, young as it is. It has been one of the most trying weeks as far as I can remember …

However, it’s good to know that you’re being thought of and appreciated, funny how the small things in life always makes your day, lifting the spirits and haling the tortured soul. I won’t be gawdy and start mentioining names but you know who you are …