hell

Hell would be a nice place to be in right now compared to where I am now. I’m train wreck that is and had happened. I don’t need or want shit like this anymore, and she always finds a convenient way of starting shit out of nothing.

The world isn’t perfect, I’m not perfect, not doing something that you want to do doesn’t make a selfish, and if you fucking wanted me to do it, say it.

People do tings for a reason, and if the reason doesn’t seem obvious or so apparent, then it would be something personal right? Or something that even I couldn’t explain.

Now do I have to make that obvious? It’s my own personal turmoil or web that I wanna seal with it in my own way, don’t push me in acorner.

And as always, she’s like pitbull, once she starts, she won’t let go, she’s always right, never wrong,, always stating the tings that cant be done, tings that I can’t change or fix, it’s my problems and something that I would have to deal with the rest of my life. I could always blame you for what I’m going through but that would be an easy excuse to wallow in self pity.

I do think for a split second, for a moment if the world would bebetter of with my existence… lfe for everyone would be easier wouldn’t it….