time

Time and time again

A brand new day comes and goes

You got to start afresh

You need prove yourself again

You’d have doubts

You think you’ve got your back against the walls

And time and time again

It all falls into place

You may just succeed

After all, it’s only time

insomnia

To the extent of writing this

Restless nights of narcoleptic thoughs

Of tick tock and turning as the night wears thin

Insanity kicks in as morning births

Given to the day of kaleidoscopic sights and sounds

ode

Minds collide

Random ramblings

Thoughtful retorts

Happiness in simplicity

Joy in extravagance

Whimsical in her ways

As strong as she is

The sweet innocent veneer she has

she

The time when we first met

Was the night we shared a drag

Of troubled minds and open ends

What was to come

Was of consoling nights and comfort

And of mundane days and nights of quiet content

To which the end is unknown and untold

As happiness is she

Everything that is of, is reminiscent of her

What she has done

Has been etched at the back of my consciousness

Bittersweet is without her

What she was, is and will become

For what I have ever known

Will always colour my thoughts in time

As that is she

Feng Tao'd

Yes, photographic evidence that goes to show: there's an inner ah beng or ah lian in us all.

Which is a good thing that Kev manage to get only one snapshot of me in my element last Saturday night (though I do look kinda spaz in this).

But with this, the damage has been done, armed with a pair of glow sticks (YES!!), without really being much induced by alcohol, I was tearing up the floor for I think about 3 hours?

And in the same time stealing the thunder of the ah bengs, who would've thought that they would be centerstage with this.

"E nabei, chi a amg moh lang xi xiang?" or "Ze a lang xiao liao." Would have been one of the gripes in hokkien I'd gather, toned down of course.

Me finks I was just in the mood as I love live sets, just the energy and the suprise element of it all, and also the fact that I have a fondness for high enerfy trance these days, so Adam Freeland (heard about him but never got into his mixes) sorta did the trick.

And of course that would be some anthems you'd pick up, really got into the mood when he strung up Tiesto's "Lethal Industry", Armin Van Buren's "Punk" in between few other tracks of course, that really got me in the mood, I was mental by then.

There were certain elements of tech house meshed into his set which would be kinda expected, to which could be from Carl Cox or maybe even someother masters of the wheels of steels, or virtual dee jay these days in my collection as they do sound famailar.

the closing track? Well for me that is that I was sorta fprced t go home by my companions that night, don't know whther it be exhaustion or to save em from further embarassment as caused by my exuberance.

Anyways, it was Paul van Dyk's ""For An Angel", which for you trancecients out there it will always be, and remain a classic....

ice cold...

Went through the juicy bits of Pulp Fiction again, that cult classic Trarntino, blood busting, black somedy caper film that won the Cannes film Festival’s Palm D’or way back in ’94.



As it is, it’s just one fucking cool film, good screenplay, excellent film that I could watch over and over again, and also remember most of the lines.

However, one of the more memoravle lines would be the bible verse of Ezekiel 25:17 that Smauel L. Jackson’s character Pip, resites before he pops a cap on the mo’ fo’s ass;










“The path of the righteous man is beset on all sides by the iniquities of the selfish and the tyranny of evil men. Blessed is he, who in the name of charity and good will, shepherds the weak through the valley of darkness, for he is truly his brother's keeper and the finder of lost children. And I will strike down upon thee with great vengeance and furious anger those who would attempt to poison and destroy my brothers. And you will know my name is the Lord when I lay my vengeance upon thee.”











With the setting and the hitman that he plays, especially when he deliberates on finishing off Ringo in the last scene in the diner, that’s just cool personified.

And yea, will be blogging the mundane from time to time...

nerd

As most of you would know, I am a football geek, I absorb most of the games, programs, commentary and punditary that comes along with the beautiful game. And it's close to a religious experiance for me when Manchester United plays, which I must adnit I have toned down through the years, or when a major tournaments sommences, i.e., the World Cup or the Euro's, everything else seizes, depending on it's importance of course.

There's this program on ESPN, Football Focus (Tuesday's 8 p.m. H.K. time), and as the name would suggest, it's a panel based discussion punditary program based on the issues of the day.

So i gotten around to suggesting some ideas, opinions and critism which over the weeks has 'been gettiong my goat' (as coined by the show).

So, as everyone would have a geek, obsessive or fanatical side to themselves to the things they like, here's mine:

____
Name: Ian
Country: Singapore
Email: XXXXxxx@yahoo.co.uk
Premire League Team: Manchester United

"Love the new format of the show, gives in for alot of free flowing, lively discussion.

But really, what has been getting my goat the past few weeks, is how the panel has been going on about in the first part of the show, about how bad Liverpool has been playing. Even though it is constructive critism, it is the same critism and suggestions week in week out.

In my opinion to this tinkering, benitez should play a positive 4-4-2, keep a stable and regular back 4 and play Stevie G alongside Alonso in the middle and he can tinker with the rest of the mediocre squad that he has bought.

Also, I don't know why the panel doesn't go on praise Man Utd, all I've noticed is just a couple of one liners on how well they played over the weekend and then the panel goes on abit on how i.e., Chelsea or Arsenal or bolten played. Shouldn't there be abit more credit to where credit should be due? And they do play badly, which hasn't been yet so far this season, except fpr one of two slight bleeps, the knives come out.

I did, however enjoy the insight given by Bryan Robson on the near death hairdryer treatment that he almost experienced. It fascinating to see and to hear firsthand, from topclass players, their experinces and the human element of football. Kudos to Fergie as well, the EPL in a way wouldn't be what it is without him in some sense.

I was watching afew programs on ESPN , arcgive footages of old EPL games and I'm wondering if this could be up for discussion, where have all the mavericks and showmen gone? The likes of your Cantona's, Le Tissier's, Di Canio's and Ginola's etc who would just take things into their own hands, take the game by the scruff of it's neck and run the show. There are one of 2 players i.e., Maradona and Ronaldinho comes to mind. Has the game become too costly, tactical and high pressured for players like these to showcase and express themselves?

Long as this email is, I do live, eat, breathe football at times. I wish at times the program could be a 2 hour one as the dicussions really do get heated and really rivething, which I think most viewers across Asia would agree.

Cheers."

"Acuma Matata Bitches!"

Caught Talladega Nights: The Ballad of Ricky Bobby.



If you didn’t know what it, it’s the new Will Ferrell’s comedy spoof on America’s NASCAR racing scene.

Bit really, to appreciate it even more, should catch Day’s of Thunder (that old Rom Cruise film, when Tom met Nicole….) if you haven’t seen it already to fully appreciate the artistic brillance of this comedic display.

It basically takes the mickey outta everything stereotypical to do with NASCAR, from the southern redneck drivers and their lives, trophy wives, endorsement deals and so on and so forth. Plus, Sacha Baron Cohen (a.k.a Ali G) gives extra amo fo laughs.

It’s good for a real laugh. I’d put it up there with the greats of all time spoof flicks: Aistin Powers I, Space Balls, Zoolander, Scary Movie etc. So just leave your brains at the door and laugh away.

-Afterthat-

We decided to take a drive around Geylang, the unofficial official redlight dristrict of Singapore. Singrpoe is abit of a contradiction in my eyes at times. Indeed we do pride ourselves on being a orim and proper, orderly island city state and society, but it’s the underbelly of our nightlife that adds a lil bit more spice and colour to the status quo.

And the reason for this randomness was, to be honest I haven’t got a blinking clue, but we sorta made use of it all and maxed out the cheese factor to things by cranking up Jigger’s “Big Pimp’n” and %0s “P.I.M.P.” on the system, windows down and all, crusing slowly down the narrow, seedy allweyways. And like yea, our ain and objective was achieved as the somewhat bemused streetwalkers and their pimps were wondering who the hell we were and in a way, sorta out of place in this cinapeng orientated part of town, which most of the time would want things to be quiet so as to fly below the radar.

However, the flipside of things would be the business of plying the skin trade, sad as it seems that some women would have to dig this low to make a living, as it is also due to the exploitation of pimps and brothel (which in Singapore and most other asian countries I reckon would be indicated by a red latern for a house of vice and infidelity) mistress’s, though some ply the trade legally these days, it’s just sad and deplorable.

Affection

It comes and goes

Of serenity and infinite bliss

Tragedy and utmost despair

Though near or far

Too far gone

To long for

To feel, to touch, to hold

Never to let go

And never to be apart

You've Come Along Way Baby...

"All that is necessary for the triumph of evil is that good men do nothing."
- Edmund Burke

Irish orator, philosopher, & politician, 1729 - 1797

Allow me to tale my ego for a trip, for the reason being that you don’t get this sense of accomplishment and pride. Everyday….



Damn RIGHTI have graduated.

I don’t know really where to begin, it’s really a weird experience, for those of you who have, I think you know what I mean, and for those who are about to go through this, it would be a moment worth savoring for.

I have been getting kind words of praise from, friends gamily and people who have seen me grown up, saying how proud they are of me and how far I have come til now.

In many ways, I do feel that these words heaped upon me I am no worthy, and in so,e way, I do feel I have come this far, and then some.

Going through 20 years of education.. wow… it just went by like that, from the disappointment of going into normal academic after PSLE, to the determintion of trying to get out of it and then later just not giving a fuck,a dn onto the GCE ‘O’s where for the first time I actually put my brains into good use, onto Poly where I was one failure away from getting kicked out, and onto University where I actually enjoyed and knew whaI was doing, I have come along way.

I do also feel that I have went against the odds and did something yjay would allow me to proceed onto my next phase of life, something that some people have fallen short of.

For people who are just reading random blogs, th ereason I am saying this is that I am severely visually handicap, in saying so, being placed in a normal education enviroment, and being able to keep up and go through it, with some help coming towards the end, and that I would have to thank Jennie Benjamin, my disability’s counselor and Fiona and Karen, without these 3, I dount that I never would have graduated.

I guess, I have already come this far at this point, thers’ still along more way to go. And the speeches and other remarks made by the academicnas during the graduation ceremony did touch a lot on what I have been thinking about and going through these past few months up til now.

I guess in some way I should give myself abit more credit, that's what some of my friends have been saying. I think in some ways I should be, loosen up abit and take things abit easier. But I think being focus and driven to what I want (which is yet to be defined) has nade ne to be what I am, just raw ambition which in some ways can be mis construde or be misplaced.

I guess in all, thank you to everyone who have dragged me through to this point, kicking, screaming or otherwise.

(have more pics.. bloggers on the fritz again.. will try again)

2 years and counting...

it's been exactly 2 years since i allowed the world a sneek peak into my lunacy and edeosynchratic ways....

Atimes this empty space for me to scribble down thoughts (pun intended) has helped me through things as such.

But as I look through some of the entries that I have posted in the past. I wonder to myself what the fuck was I thinking... or still am for that matter...

Deaf & Disorientated

Now this is sick...


Just played around and fiddled with the new entertainment system for the living room downstairs, the sound quality is friggn off the hook… still kinda disorientated from the surround sound…

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Will spare you from the more techy details, but if you are one of those, help ourself at:
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Last Night

Another night of bowling with the Muppets (not that i would dare coin such a nick!), with Kermie, Cookie Monster, Bert and Ernie ... Go figure...

In some sense, am getting the hang of this stupid game, but just like my golf swing, have a bad hook at times... and for the 3rd time in succession after bowling, my left butt cheek hurts again... Too much info? then whats' a blog for? ;p





"ba-da-ta-ta-taa .. i'm lov'n it!".. any takers from Macca's for an endoresment deal? Am all ears.. hahah...

Should start to take my cam out more these days, get more snaps...

what i saw

Caught World Trade Center afew hours ago. The film that revisits 911, that fateful day that changed the world and history as we know it, and initially brought out the best of the human spirit and later on down the road, the worst of: every biasness’, every discriminatory, every stereotype, every xenophobic, every hypocracy that would come out of this world right now, sad as it is, as influenced by the modern day media and the powers that be, or otherwise.

Initially, I thought that this would just be a patrioic Amerucana film. But as I watched it, what unfolded before me a was truly a powerful film. It just hit a nerve that after seeing the flick, for some strange reason I just felt so numb, and I guess I’m writing this entry to recollect my thoughts.

For one thing, the background of the story would be the tragedy of 911, but simply out, it tells the story of the spectrum of the human spirit: anger, anguish, hurt, despair, confusion, hope, joy, dreams, happiness, elation and any other superlative that would describe the emotions of being human.

To be honest, it was rather difficult, at points of the film to watch it, I felt this rather uneasy chill coming up from the back of my spine, and at times, there were tears. That’s just being human.

I guess this sorta reaction would be what it is, genuine. As it did happen and to revisit that, even though, from the parts of wher I’m from, wast not affected by it it directly. But you’d one way or another feel something and just ask yourself.. Why?

Another thing that hit me, which was rather morbid and I don’t know why it crept into the forfromt of my thoughts was that of near death experiences and one’s mortality. I would have to say that it did happen once and it had not crossed my mind at all, but I guess this film sorta did trigger some thought about it.


Life is meant to be cherished, celebrated and made full use of.

Erm, think I'm getting abit too deep and philosophical now.

The power of cinematography.

A New Dawn?

Friday, 6th October 2006 @ 11 a.m., a new dawn might just be in the horizon for me. There’s s ense of nervous anticipation enveloping in me for one simple reason…

I have no idea what door my dad has opened for me.

Not that I am ungrateful to people for lending me a hand, I won’t look a gift horse in the mouth. The fact is I’m way in the dark on this. Although I am relief that something has come up, as my self inflicted foray into mental torture has been well documeneted.

If you haven’t got your brains around as to decifer what I’ve been trying to say, is that come Friday I’ve got a ‘discussion’ for the opportunity of a job position in an energy consultancy firm. Indeed, it was put to me that casually which kinda freaked me.

For me not labeling this an interview is for the fact that I got this opportunity through his leisurely round of golf, and I guess this topic of me being unemployed came from the usual banter of pepople who have made it would be talking about in a round a golf; everyday stuff, but that’s just me guessing.

The post? I frankly have no idea, what I have heard would be sketchy murmurings of a research position or something along those lines, and even the thoughts of this or whatever other position that he feels I am capable of has already got me thinking of the worst case scenerio that could happen.

But for fuck sakes man! I’m a boody graduate, I've come this far already! It’s not as though I’m going be translating greek or something, just gotta roll with the punches..

Or you’ll never know where this may lead to….

A Thought

As just said by a good friend of mine:

"Life can be depressing when you cannot decide or control what you want to do... sometimes all you need is a little faith ..."

How true ... words of wisdom as spoken by Mr hau .. cheers mate...

10 Pints of Beer On The Wall … 10 Pints of Beer ...

As the title would suggest, sorta got into the mood of Ocktiver Fest, which get’s kinda distorted in this part of the world as to when it really does happen.

In anycase this stony state of mine wasn;t really from a wild night on the town. As I said that I wanted to keep things quiet for awhile and it was quiet… to begin with…

It started out at my gran’s birthday dinner, food and 4 beers later, me and Shaunneh wanted a quiet drink, so we ended up knocking back afew at Tanglin Club cos we thought the October Fest was next week, guess not again. So we watched the EPL with a couple of other sloshed Pomey’s, plus Kermie and Ernie … 4 beers later…..

We wandered off Win Company (me finks) at evans Road (off Bukit Timah, next to the prata place at botanics). As the name of the establishment would suggest, one of those new wine chillout places, very quiet and tucked away from the hustle and bustle of the nightlife … Wine’s slightly marked up from what you can get from the usual places you get your plonk…. 1 beer later….

We were off to Onne Rochester. Yea that new chillout spot off Buena Vista MRT station . Very chilled, the water effects and lighting against the greenery sets you in the mood.. plus reggae was being piped in, which does remind me about the chillout sessions back in K.V. .. sigh/// how I wish ….

I.5 large pints … the one that broke my belly….

The fun had now began.. I think I was singing “Guantanmera” most of the night and a impromptu karaoke session soon insued in Kev’s ride as I was being fropped off and they continued the festivities til the birth of morning…

The Aftermath

Well, I woke up with the world spinning wuth my head still on the pillow, all the lights were still on, I didn’t dare tried getting up at this stage.. so still horizontal and my head rolling around on it’s own… The wonders of beer at that as well .. had rather happy and bizarre dream… seemed like de je vous …

When I did get up, was rather bemused to find that I was chatting to some people on msn without much recollection, and as well as some peps from Oz also…

BLIMEY!

So that would be mt somewhat enimic and feeble account of my weekend.. I need sleep….